i shoudnt be here, but ouwh well. hee. =)
i love this number. which is also today's date. therefore, i shall update. hoho, lamer.*
last week.?
cant remember. nyaah. ouwh wait, shall grab my 'Innovian Guide'.! ahah.* Surprisingly, i've been constantly updating this freaking organiser.! still, my life's far from being organised. so yes, you can laugh at me now. =)
Econs timed-assignment [its equivalent to a test lah ehhh. hai*] on Monday.! surprise, surprise.* something wrong with the dispersion of info, so apparently, nobody came prepared. least now im prepared for the worst. x)
but ouwh ouwh.! i passed the previous econs case study test.! euphoric pleaseee. hee.! kay, it wasnt at all good. but the thought of everyone else around me failing, simply gave me a sense of achievement.! AHAH.* syukur alhamdulillah. =))
Had math vector test on thurs.! woots, i failed.! it was simple, if only i had put in a tiny winy bit of an extra effort. but ouwh well.! knowing all those freaking intellectual babes in my class aced such papers blissfully, im finally feeling the drive to fight.! gerls, watch out uh.! ahahaa. =p
ouwhs.! class photo-taking on weds.! fun funnn.* kay, im also finally falling in love with the gerls in my class. they're gorgeous, plus intellectual. anddd totally sporting.! wee. we each had thick bio/chem/math/whatsoever bookssss in our hands for the informal pic.! so cute please, who's idea huh.?? ahahaa. x)
and i love neat triangle-knot ties with a length nothing less than, perfect. hoho.!
ouwh.! yeah.! for the first time in my entire 17 years of life, i finally got to stand right smack in the middle.! yerps.! paisey yes, but woah.* i feel taaaaall.! nyahahaa.! erPs.
trg.? okay. *zips* i still do love fb, truly, madly, deeply. ahahaa. btw, the freaking rough futsal ground totally ate my blade.! in 6mths, totally.! hmphs. =(
im loving my pwmates too. we're getting along quite well, i must say. hee. =)) well done.! hoho.*
COP on sunday. total waste of time. but it was a great moment for class bonding, somehow.? ahah. yeah, i love my cg, minus few here and dere. *blearghhh* nyahahaa. yerps.! best.
frm national library. the ride home alone, crap sia. bleargh upside down, inside out. seriously lah, nyonya, i hope you get breast cancer. heh.
PS: i prayed for you to fall down the steps, but u dint.! boo* so fall sick please.okay, im being too cruel. yall ought to hear the story. actually no, im tired of re-enactments. ahahaaa.
ouwhs. and i realized. life's too short to get all stressed out about school.
i wake up everyday thinking, gosh* another day to exhaust myself. i simply want to get this 2 years over and done with so badly. i simply want time to fly so fast.
that i forget about what i have now. and i put them aside, thinking it'll always be around. taking things for granted. especially the people i love most. i barely have time to show them that love.
particularly, my parents. at times, i hate myself for being so ignorant.
im always glad that a day ended, that i've managed to somehow pull through. and even wen im suppose to sleep, i'd be thinking of all the stuffs pending on my to-do-list. of how i am suppose to prepare myself for another hectic day ahead.
i keep thinking that i want this jc life to end. and before that day comes, everything else can be put on hold.
and yesterday, after a conver with my parents. it strucked me, hard.
what if at the end of this two years of ignorance, they're not there anymore. hey, thats the cycle of life, it is inevitable. Would i look back cursing myself for not spending enough time with them.? and the answer is yes. a big fat huge YES.
im not ready to be independent. im not ready to lose you.
so please dont. ouwh god* nothing soon, please.
i love you, more than you can imagine. and im trying hard. i will not regret. so please dont leave.
*let the rain fall down,
and wake my dreams.
let it wash away,
my sanity. *
allahuakbar. tolong lah.